I have been diagnosed with tourettes long ago but was only the cause of stuttering. now I have very frightening thoughts and urges that disturb me. my doctor has mentioned he thinks it's tourettes again. from my own research I think it's a mix of OCD and tourettes.
an example of a typical urge that happened today.
While on highway with girlfriend I had an urge and thought to grab the steering wheel and turn it towards the ditch. i do not want to die nor kill my girlfriend but get urges of such things constantly when my mind is not occupied.
If I see a knife I worry that something bad will happen and if I'm thinking about it long enough i worry and have excessive thoughts of me hurting someone or myself. I am worried that I may be turning into a psychopath and it worries me that I may lose control some day and do all these horrible things i worry about.
It's kind of a double dose for me.. I get a tick that is hard to forget about, then obsess about it to the point that I imagine it happening.
Am I the only on that experiences these things? Should I be locked up?
I'm so scared all the time because of all this. I avoid things that may trigger a "tick" or obsession. I even avoid the person I love the most in the world in fear of an argument that may lead to something bad. Although nothing bad ever happen.