Adult diagnosed TS
Well, I started clearing my throat and coughing when around five or six, and eye blinking when seven. I remember my mother constantly telling me to stop these things, calling them awful nervous habits. I'd try stopping to please her, but couldn't. Meaning that I was constantly criticized for something I couldn't stop.
Another thing I've always had to do (I don't know if it's a tic or an autistic stim, it's not possible to know) is to sort of pinch my neck. One of my daughters would imitate me and mock me, to show me how stupid it looked, so I would stop. I tried awfully hard to stop, and succeeded once for a month. By the end of the month I felt like going insane, because I needed to do that. But I felt like I was a failure with no self control at all if I started again. Eventually I had to give into doing it again and hated myself for it.
My son used to yell at me for repeating things he said, telling me that he just said that, and now I was trying to make it look like it was my idea. I had no answer for him, because I didn't know why I had to repeat what he said.
My husband used to get mad at me for repeating things I say several times, and again, I couldn't tell him why I needed to do that, because I didn't know myself.
When I needed to do obvious tics I used to suppress them for hours, and then would spend one or two hours in the bathroom, letting out the tics. I thought I might be insane, and didn't want people to know.
Finding out about Tourette Syndrome (at the age of 50) was a great relief and finally explained all those things. I told my son why I repeat things and explained to everybody what tics are, and that I don't want to do them but have no choice. Now they ignore them most of the time. Even though sometimes they'll still tell me to 'stop it', especially when I fidget in church, because I am an embarrasment to them, I guess. Just the other day my 19-year-old daughter got mad at me for clearing my throat several times while she was on the phone. She still doesn't understand that it is a tic and that it isn't voluntary.
I still feel embarrassed about my tics, even at home, because of the persecution I've had all my life. For the most part I let them out, though, and won't hide in the bathroom any more. It's time my family learns to live with it, it's too stressful to suppress tics at home, too. I should be able to relax at home and not having to worry about it.
German citizen, married to a Canadian for 28 years, four daughters, one son, eight grandchildren (and one on the way).