I find I'll swear at people in my head, or think racist thoughts (which frighten me, because I am not in the least racist), but this far I have been able to never say them (or just whisper them). I hope it stays that way! I can't seem to stop the thoughts, and find them distressing, because I am afraid that some day I'll have to say them out loud, and I think I wouldn't go out any more than.
Cailean, I hope it won't get worse for you.
German citizen, married to a Canadian for 28 years, four daughters, one son, eight grandchildren (and one on the way).